Sunday, March 4, 2012

My heart tonight

I just got back from a weekend at the camp winter retreat. My heart is bursting right now in so many ways. I have been completely overwhelmed by the love, grace, and mercy that God has for us his children. I want to shout on top of a mountain God's name. My heart aches for people to know this personal, beautiful, perfect GOD!

It just boggles my mind how the creator of the universe can love little me. He has done so much for me and I what can I give him but every part of my life? I fail at this often. I admit that there have been times I've felt ashamed, or times that I've sugar-coated my love for him, or times that I've held back on what I surrender to him.

I feel compelled to write this apology to him for times that I've done these things. Man oh man, do I desire to know this perfect God even more. I lack words to express this! But I am comforted that he knows my heart and the words that I can't find to express my love for him. 

I am thankful that the love of God is a bizarre and beautiful thing. I love pondering over the mystery of it and marveling at its beauty!! 

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I came home to PEI last week because my Grampie became sick. I have been on a roller coaster ride with God these past two weeks. He has been teaching me so much about life, trust, and his faithfulness. Though this is a very difficult time for our whole family, I know that God is revealing himself in it. Mom showed me this song a few months ago and I heard it again today and it really holds meaning for me right now.



If you are reading this and feel compelled to do so, please be praying for our family in this time. For strength and peace.